Photos

Ok, well I know that I already posted today, but I wanted to attach some pictures I took. Some turned out good and others not as well as I'd hoped, but....... here are a few of my favorites.

I wish I were better....

at a lot of things, including updating this. I wish that I were more consistent with my running instead of letting life and worries get in the way. I wish I were better at telling people how I feel. I wish I were better at a lot of things, but all I can do is I work on those things little by little. So, today, I go running. I will start writing my feelings down. I will webcam with Sevrine tonight and tell her how I much I love and miss her. Today, I will send emails to some of my friends telling them how much I appreciate them.

Getting back

Well, after 11 days off I went walking today. Did about 3 miles and feel pretty good. I hate that I've been so tired lately, but I'm determined to be consistent. I have it set up so Wednesday and Friday are my off days and all of the other days I'll either do 2.5 miles or 3.1 miles. I still want to do 5k this year, but think that I tried to bite off a little bit more than I could chew and have been dealing with shin splints and some foot pain as a result. Gonna just walk for a while and then get back into running more. I want this to be something that I do for a long time, not just for a little while, so will ease into it. :) So, off to get ready for Church now.

Still running

I really wanted to run every day, but was starting to get a little burned out and was starting to realize that even though it's good for me, my body was telling me that I was over-doing it a little. I think that as my body starts to get used to it, I will eventually be able to run everyday, but for now I'm going to make sure that I allow myself some recovery time too. I like being able to get out on the road and just enjoy the quiet. It's time to myself that I can reflect on the day and start to figure things out. I'm a visual person, and if I can't see results, then I typically will lose interest, but with my nike+ kit, I can synch my miles to the nike site and actually see my progress. I've joined challenges on their and can see where I stand with other runners. Since I'm new, my expectations are super high, but I like to see where I compare. Now I'm just waiting to see some results in my body from adding all this running. :)

Nike+

Gotta love technology. I think that I've gotten a little off track when it comes to my goals this year, so am finding new motivation to run. I recently purchased the Nike+ sport kit to go with my ipod and really like that it tracks my miles, pace, time and calories burned. I really think this is going to keep me on track. I would really like to do a 5k this year and am following the couch to 5k program as well. I just get to check my ipod to see how far I've run as well as listening to the podcast. I'll keep tracking my progress here and let you all know how I'm doing. :)

Okay

I think that slowly but surely I'm becoming okay with being alone (not in a relationship). I went to an engagement party today for one of my best friends and while there was a small amount of awkwardness, my being the only unattached person there (Sevrine doesn't count as a date), I didn't want to cry on the way home for my lack of a partner. Don't get me wrong, I was still a little sad that I don't have a partner right now, but for the first time in a while, it didn't make me want to cry. I felt a little bit more awkward there because even though I'm not much older than my friends, in maturity and our places in life, I'm way older. They are still fairly free to do the things they want without much planning, while I have to take several factors into account before I can even go to the grocery store. Part of me is jealous or their unfettered lifestyles, and part of me feels sorry for them because they don't have the experiences that having kids brings you. I guess I'm just feeling the divide between us get larger and larger the more time goes by. None of them are going through any of the same things that I am going through solely because I have a child. Maybe that's me isolating myself a little, but I find it harder and harder to relate sometimes because of it.

starting over

Well, its time to start fresh. A week into this new year I'm officially single and trying to focus on myself. Gonna take things slow as far as dating goes, but will actually be blogging my dating experiences since it seems that they are so entertaining. I seem to be a magnet for guys that are just a little off the wall, so I'll just have to write about them just so you can get a sense of what I mean. I don't think I'll be posting those things on this particular blog, just to try and keeps things separate, but we'll see. I'm sure there will be some spill over.